erm....

i have nutin much to say accept that im damn hurt so hurt till i cant feel anything at all..i cant believe u said tat to me....

huhuhuhuhu...

"i love u no matter wat tau"

ahaks...kata2 yg tersemat di hati..maybe org dh muak dgn kisah cinta kami..well i myself pun kdg2 muak gaks hahahaha *jgn marah muk*...keje kami dari awal berchenta is clsh kapel clsh kapel...mmg meluat gaks hahaha tp for me i think thats whut makes us love each other so much..cos no matter whut happen our love always lead us the way back to each other heart...

once i penah bgtau kt sumbody...no matter how jht muk muk i pun or kureng ajaq nyer dia..dia still the only one yg leh wat i ketawa smpi terkencing2 hahahaha..*rahsia kite tau*..the only one yg boleh wat i marah,geram,syg,cinta at the same time ahaks...klu nk tau tkde la hebat sgt muk i nie but die pandai nk main kn peranan dia *kdg2 jerk kn muk wekss*....

its hard 4 me 2 explained whut happen between us..i think if u asked muk pun muk tktau..but yg pasti kami boleh jawap from the bottom of our heart is tat we love each other so much...Muk dh la tue muk tkperlu la kite nk gaduh2 n clsh2 lagik sbb kite tau hati kita r meant 4 each other ahaks...nnt smpi masa kite akn tetap bersama k muk...

oh btw kata2 atas tue muk msg kt i...sape kata dak kureng ajaq tue tk romantik kn kn kn ahaks..honestly muk byk berubah n im soo soo sooo sooooooo proud of him...i dont know whut makes him change hanya dia yg leh jwp soklan tue...*so muk sila jwp nape?hehe*

syg i love u to no matter wat....lets just hope tat our dream will come true ye syg...mwakhsss...

ok tats it 4 now guyz bos dh mai hahahaha...till next quest happy reading...

*muk sentiasa muk pada ku ngeh ngeh ngeh*

its time....

nutin much to say just tat i think its time to move on...cos i cant handle anything anymore... to much pain n sorrow n its time to let go...just fly away like u always do n do pls try never ever to come back again 4 i have to close my eyes in hopes 2 open again ure not there anymore...

gudbye my frenz..gudbye my lover...i will always love u....

woo wooo....

hey guys...on friday ive got new things hahaha excited gile nk tulis kt blog smlm but tkde mood laks ahaks...nie nie nie nk tunjuk kt semua yg membaca...sila lihat lampiran :P

cop mohor bernama

ahaks nie la yg dpt...dpt cop ade nama alamakk lupe nk padam laks nama di atas hahaha..excited tk sabar nk cop cop bende hahaha masa 1st2 dpt nie pun duk cop cop merata smbil tgk kiri kanan tk nk org nmpk malu hehehehe...

well thats all the new 4 now guyz...till next quest happy reading...

*golek golek dpt cop ade nama*

oreo ice cream kek

ahaks last time i wanted to put the kek pic but cant kn hehehe tis is it guys..the most beautiful kek evaaaaa....hahhaha nk nk nk tau mukkkk...


terliuq laks hahaha tis is the kek yg i dh idam kn sejak kecik2 lagik tau hehe muk i nk tau u janji nk beli kt i no matter wat hehe












till next quest guyz...happy licking the screen ahaks...

*nape mcm senget jerk kedudukan pic nie ahaks mls nk tgk koding die biar la lalala~~`*

multimedia & latihan

well ive been posted to the multimedia n training section hahahahha multimedia adeh mati la.... mane reti uwaaaa...but kena blaja baik2 kena wat elok2 tk reti kena bertanya kn kn kn itu la cara bekerja...theres alot of new thing i have to understand n much much more borang 2 fill ahaks tekanan woooo lagi2 if sistem kureng memuaskan...n yg paling2 penting tat i have to adapt to is cara pemakaian hahahaha bj kurung jerk huhuhu dh la almari mmg tk cukup bj kurung isk golek2 baju yg sama jerk la...nnt if ade gaji kena la beli bj...but bulan nie sadly i didnt get my paycheck yet haisshh kena la tgu bulan dpn....nsb baik pose...

btw nie ade pic yg lya nk tunjuk aritue lagik nk upload but tk kesmpaian..hehe nie pic kt tmpt keje...

nie la the famous meja bulat
(everytime pegawai br lapor diri kena duk kt cini sekurang2nya 5 ari)

permandangan dari tingkap bangunan SPA

decorative pic from 1 of the meetings room
(i just love the pic)
*sorry the pic quality is not so nice*

well now dh dpt tmpt tk sempat nk ambik pic lagikk..nnt la i take 1 at least bg korg tgk k hahahaha...k la all till next quest..happy reading

*lalalala~~~` kenapa la jauh sgt tmpt keje ku*

lalalalala~~`

its been days since my 1st day at spa but till now i haven got any job to do ahaks maybe baru lagik kn all the bosses mesti tgh pk nk bg sistem ape dak nie buat hahahhahaha mati la akuuu hehe...

im continuing my driving license ahaks tue la dlu2 tknk abesh kn skang kn dh ssh haha..i want my license so tat tkde la nyusah kn sape2 nk drove me all the way to putrajaya..oh god i hope ive found a place there senang cikit..isk isk....pls guys if ure reading tkde ke member2 yg duk sana yg nk housemate informed me ek...asap...oh smbung psl kete tue..last time bukan tknk smbung the honest truth is im scared...im very very afraid of failing oh god let me do this in peace n pls give me strength...terserah pada mu ya allah ya tuhan ku...

im being a bit melodramatic tis past few weeks might be due to the circumstances that i have to face rite now or simply because im having my period hahahahaha...thats the thing tat i love the most being a woman...i can excuse myself from any mistake or problem due to hormonal imbalance hahahhaha LOVE it...

ok guys suddenly sleepy...till next quest happy reading...

*maybe there's hope still for ps i love u ahaks*

i need help....

i feel like dying this couple of dayz...i need sumone to be there 4 me but it seems tat it only left as a wishful thinking..i browse around sum frenz blog well i guess they have better issue to write about.. as 4 me i dont have any info but just a life lesson that im learning thru out the day....so here goes

im so damn depressed rite now n i dont know whut to do n where to go..i really need of my wonderpets rite now but as suspected they have their own life..well my beloved wonderpets i wish u all the best in your life..stay the same coz u are perfect just the way u r....soo seem that i dont have my wonderpets anymore i guess this is the last place 4 me to express myself whether if there's nobody reading it i guess it peace my mind just a little bit tats all i hope 4...

well as always i never write whut is my main problem ahaks..i guess i dont know how to explained it...i truly need help...ya allah ya tuhan ku bantu lah hamba mu yg kerdil ini aku benar2 memerlukan bantuan mu ya allah...beratnya laa dlm kepala ni air mata nie meleleh aje tk henti2 time dlm bus ke kt opis ke tgh jln ke..ahaks but mcm biasa tkde sape akn sedar air mata ku meleleh...i think i want to stop now cos skang pun dh tk nmpk screen ahaks...

till next quest guyz...happy reading

*no more ps i love u*

Posting...

well guys as u all know im a gov servent now ahaks..well theres pros n cons laa tp semua tmpt mcm tue kn kn kn...ive been posting at SPA Putrajaya *jauh gilee isk isk* yeay under PM tats pengurusan maklumat double yeay..mmg bidang sendiri la but i think its been a while i main2 ngn coding2 nie takut tkleh nk wat laks...but i have to dh tis is my new work kn kn..chaiyok chaiyokk...kite setiap manusia perlu ada keyakinan diri no matter whut come our way kena harungi dgn penuh ketabahan n keyakinan ahaks...tats whut ive been telling myself la..nnt tkleh wat nangis jap then try lagik if tkleh gakss nangis lagikk then carik jln lagik hahahahhaha mcm tue la kehidupan kn...

well enuz of work my love life still sucks..i am full of problem rite now but certain people cant handle me time im like tis..well i dun blame u..i sumtimes cant even handle myself..but as always i expected more from u which is my own fault ahaks...i only have me to blame...i need to settle this fast so tat i can have a simple n quiet life...*but do i want a simple n quiet life?* ahaks....

i guess tats it guys..till next quest..happy reading

*i need place to stay in putrajaya if u have any info inform me plss thanks in advance*

.............

i dont wanna cry myself to sleep again 2nite...its hard 4 me to let go n pretend tat nutin is happening..im not sure whuts goin on n im sure there a lesson tat ive shud have learn by now.. in a way im 2 tired to think about it but tats the only thing linger on my mind..

im trying so hard to let u go n just focus on the bad things that u have done to me..but i cant seem to block the happy memories tat we have all this while it kept seeping thru..n even this blog reminded me of u..maybe cos its 2 early to let go..but i need u to be gone if tats the way tat u want it to...well i guess its my own fault i always let my ego do the talking 4 me...ahaks but tats no used now..ure still gone..n im not sure whut i want...

how stupid of me to aspect u 2 pick up my called or even return my sms...how do we get this far?? i promise myself not to think about u..cos i guess ure not thinking bout me at all...i felt so stupid sumtimes...y do i love u so much but all u do is hurt me time n time again...i want to let go but i dont want to...aarrgghhhh im just making no sense at all....i do know i love u but i will never make u love me if u dont want to...thanks 4 all the memories i will cherries it for all my live...

* i love u syg more than u'll ever know.....*

till next quest guys...like i said i dont wanna cry myself to sleep anymore...i need ure help...happy reading...

heart broken...

sorry again guys its been a while since i wrote again..sumtin have happen n few dayz back i dont feel like writing anything...i dont even know how to start..well i guess all the happy times tat we share last week was the last 4 us..well i guess nutin much to say rite..maybe just a few message 4 my former lover *if u r reading*

i hope all the best 4 u...and whut ever u do just remember that it involve other people so think before u act..love ure self less start loving people around u more...love ure family cos they the only thing tat uve got if u dont have anything...start thinking about ure future coz nobody else will think about it 4 u...n lastly i do love u but i cant take anything anymore...have a enjoyable life ahead k..

just a little sumthing 4 u

Already Gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

till next quest guys..happy reading...

*i hate being lonely but its a choice tat i have to make....*

09.08.88

hey guys sorry 4 not writing in a while..few things happen..now im safe back at my own bed in my own room in my own house ahaks...actually i when to kulim sbb nk sambut my muk muk's birthday ahaks an early one ok la tue kn muk...this entry just dedicate 4 u la muk..hehe

at 1st we were planning to drive ourself to kuala perlis n mkn but then a few dayz before i when there muk's told me that he had to worked on Wednesday *ari cuti muk*..agak mrh arr time tue but pk balik whut 4 nk mrh mesti ade hikmah disebalik kejadian kn..soo i said to my muk..tats ok i still g sana ape2 pun janji kita dpt jumpa hehe..*mood jiwang 2 saat*... :P

when i get there terkejut tgk muka muk dh different ahaks..dh makin comey laks syg ku ini..wit my present n jacket yg die beli makin encem laks muk ku ni dress up..uwaaaa tk suke nnt org lain suke kt my muk nnt muk lari hehehhhe *me being paranoid* mwakhsss kt muk yg dh makin macho n comey hahahahaha...

we had fun tis time around..we did not fight at all ahaks..mcm lawak jerk cos being ourself org yg rapat sure tau kiteorg mmg hobi gaduh..but tis time mmg tkde ape2 pun jd..everything smooth jerk..probably both of us dh makin understand each other, have learn how to control each other, or dh mls nk lyn each other hahahahaha...well we when to watch movie besh wooo..we watch the sorcerer apprentice n avatar the last airbender besh woo hahahaha..*im trying to upload pic but fail i het mxs*

ive got my muk a birthday present n then he wants cake from secret recipes...so we when n buy 2 slice of cake ahaks tk mampu nk beli whole cake lagi pun sape nk mkn kn muk kn...i have a couple of pic but i cant upload later if i remember i upload k....n i have a birthday wish i nak oreo ice cream cake tau...

K.U.L.I.M

yehuuu...im alone in a hotel room sitting here well actually golek2 here makes me think about alot of things to write..but as u know me im a bit absentminded hahahaha so all lost in time hahahaha.. just now i lepaking kt bwh kt kaunter ngn my muk..then bila i naik i saw tat sumbody said tat my blog have big font...well incik krekkrekkrekkrek biar besar senang org nk baca..duk jauh2 pun tk ssh nk baca hehehe tkde la cpt rabun kn kn kn muahahahaha...*kesimpulan nya blog sy suke ati sy la wekkss*

well a lot to write but suddenly i have writes block ceewwaaahhh hehehe mcm penulis hebat jek.. maybe tkleh nk nulis sbb muk kt kaunter kut hehehe tk psl2..dtg jauh2 utk berada jauh2 gaks kn muk...cian kite kn muk muk..tkpe la like i always said ade hikmah di sebalik kejadian...same goes to all my frenz..setiap yg terjadi ade la sebab nya k..so if u ter fall in love ke..ter fall out of love ke.. ter kuciwa ke..or any other problem tat we mortal might have just bersabar..n im sure ade kebaikkan nya..u'll see...

k till next quest..happy reading...

*muk i mish u cpt laa naik...hehe*


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