I het myself

Hey there sorry lama tk update been bz a bit lately. Nk smbung meroyan ke ek?rasa tkyh kut ni just nk meluah kn sedikit sbyk ape yg terpendam dlm hati nurani ni.

As u can see topic arini menarik kn ahaks well menarik for me la. I really het myself now. Rasa lembik sgt, rasa lemah sgt. 4 those who knew me before tis episode mesti knal lya as a strong n independent women *pasan jap*..well tats the truth. Lya sendiri pn tktau mane pegi nye tat gurl i used to know..tat gurl yg leh hidup atas kaki sendiri..tat gurl yg boleh bgn bila2 masa org put her down...

I really really het myself soo much rite now..kdg2 lya rasa mcm lya ni laks jd penghalang org lain nk bhgia..lya duk remind myself "just let go lya just let go" but npe ssh sgt ek?npe lya yg kuat tue hilang ek?npe lya yg ada smgt tue tk pimpin my hand n bgn kn i smula?..4 those yg dh pernah terluka how does it tat u guys bgn blk?how do u do it?pepelis bg la lya kata2 perangsang..guide me..help me

I dont wanna make the same mistake again pls show me a sign..betul ke ape yg bkal lya wat ni or am i just simply jerat diri sendiri??? Ya ALLAH i need ure guidance...

Tis is me :