that thing called L.O.V.E

Assalamualaikum all..its yet another wednesday..lately i grow fond of wednesday cos me n wid has make it official tat wednesday is our movie date day yeehuuu!!! I love movie n wid love movie soo what the heck rite i shud just go for it..but tats not what i wanna talk about here..its sumtin else sumtin important 2 most of us..

Lately ive find myself having an inner monolog about why is it so easy for sum people 2 just simply asked anyone 2 be an item..dlm erti kata lain ajak kaple la..is it a joke nowadays?? Tibe2 rasa suka kt sumbody then trs2 ajak kaple..why people why???is love not a sacred thing anymore??is it tat easy 2 find love??or do u really know whats the meaning of love??...

For me love is still sumtin sooo sacred tats only comes once in a blue moon..its soo special tat its only emerged once u truly found tat person..tat person who makes u feel like u dont need anything else but just the company of each other..tat person who lights up ure day just by saying hello..n with a single touch sent shiver down ure spine..

As u can see its not a joking or not even a 'tangkap muat' thingy for me..not just a person tats there cos u needed sumbody 2 stroke ure ego..not just sumbody to warm ure dark n lonely nights.. There is a different between love n like..eventho its a tiny line but still theres a line..so pls dont get ureself confused n making the worse decision in ure life..be sure be very sure before u make any move..

All in all tat have happen in my life..i still believe theres love n i will damn sure find it sooner or later..so lets just hope n pry for the best..

tis is me


nota tangan : ayuh kita sama mencari kebahagiaan tersebut....

Tis time its 4 good

I just cant believe what u did..after u come back i tot ure change but ure still the same n i think ure much worse.. U dont wanna b wit me u just need sumbody there when ure lonely..do i looked like a fool 2 u? After what uve did 2 me then u came back n do worse.. Seyesly ive trusted u..i truly think tat uve change but i guess im just a fool for believing in u..

I just want 2 know something..is it worth it?r u satisfied?r u much happier now??r u???or dont u even care?? I guess u dont tats y u could do what u did without even having the slightest remorsed..

Ive loved u n u very well know tat but uve break my heart 2 much n 2 many time..please do what u do best move on n dont come back n pls do not remember me everytime things isnt goin ure way..cos im not gonna b here with an open arms anymore..

tis is me :


nota tangan : penat la cinta org...

Female Driver

*bkn aku hiks*

Assalamualaikum all..2day aku rasa ok cikit dr smlm...mybe sbb aku dh luah ape aku nk luah kut or mybe sbb aku tdo je smlm hahaha..*ank2 aku duk wat ape tah smlm bgn2 abesh umah haha*...2day aku tknk meroyan tp aku nk bukak topic cikit..mybe ramai yg akn sokong n ada gaks yg akn ckp eleeeehh die pn gitu gamaknya hahahah yg pasti aku mmg suka sgt topic arini...

Kejadian pg td : aku kuar simpang nk masuk ke lane kanan sekali sbb aku nk u-turn kt trafic light dpn tu...aku tgk bakang ada 1 kete besau putih jauh gila lg..aku pun masuk dh bg signal..aku leh nmpk driver tu tekan minyak dgn lebih kuat sbb tknk bg aku masuk padahal aku sorg je kut kt citu die pn nk masuk ke lane kiri...bila aku jenguk nk tgk driver dia...guess what yesss its a women...

Kejadian pg td gaks : otw nk g bfast..there's a zebra crossing..kami nk cross dh nmpk kami nk cross kete 2 makin tekan minyak...*WTH*...oittt ada zebra nk cross kut klu tknk stop..slow down laaa beb..kami saje jln slow2 sbb nk tgk driver die sape..ye ye tekaan anda tepat mmg pompuan...

i know im one of women drivers but heeeyyy im proud 2 say i dont drive like one..*puji diri*....ive found that a lot of women out there yg tk kenal peddle brek isk isk...seriously gurls tlg la blaja brek cikit..tkde nye klu kita bg jln kt org lain kita kena marah ngn bos or kena panah petir..mama aku slalu ckp.."klu kita bg jln kt org skang..satu hari nnt tuhan mudahkn perjalanan kita.." smpi skang aku ingt n alhamdulilah kdg2 aku amal kn hehehe...honestly this entry bkn nk hentam sape2..its just that bila aku dh start drive br la aku sdr kenapa wujudnya istilah "Women Driver"..kita sbagai wanita tkleh biarkan aje benda ni berleluasa..come on all female driver out there..lets start drive like a man hahahaha but lets not let it define who we are ye ye ye...

tis is me : 

nota tangan : im a proud Malaysian Female Driver ahaks...

my life

assalamualaikum..morning peeps..its Tuesday morning and i dont feel like going 2 work but heeeyyy im here at the office..trying 2 do some work which obviously i dont want 2..bukak je keje ni n tgk smpi tembus monitor ni haa..ive been sick lately..n not myself..im not sure whats the trigger probably cos im having an imbalance hormone *yes blame it on ur sickness*...

i think im goin thru another break down..n i think its gonna be a mayor one..i can think straight..i can do anything..i dont even feel like waking up in the morning...sumtimes i dont even wanna breathe..i know its getting worse n i dont wanna be in a situation where i cant pick myself back up..its been month since it happen n im getting back on my feet..ive got back with my ex..*yes the one who left me 2 b with other gurl*..n we've break up..i dont know what i want anymore..im always so sure of what i want in life..but now its just not tat important anymore..

i need 2 built myself up before i put myself back on the shelf but can i do it??will i manage 2 find myself back??im so tired of being not important 2 anybody..im so tired of being the nice gurl tat u need 2 make u feel good about ureself..im so tired of being so not wanted...n most of all im so tired of being sooo tired...

tis is me :
Lya

nota tangan : im so angry at myself..

If only..

Assalamualaikum..tktau nk mulakn mcmane..aku rasa aku try so hard nk lupakn dia tp bila hati n minda ckp bnde yg bbeza mmg ssh nk wat..aku still smpn picca dia n bila aku rasa lonely n needed sumone aku akn tgk blk smua picca kami dr 1st till last..air mata ni toksah ckp la mcm air mata air kuar tkleh nk stop..kdg2 aku pk murah sgt ke air mata aku ni??..dlu aku ingt lg saat air mata aku ni nk kuar mcm ada stopper kut kt lubang air mata tu ssh tul nk kuar..tp skang haha dh mcm queen of air mata lwk kn..tah ape bende yg aku merepek ni kn..ape yg aku hrp kn lg pn aku tktau pdhl dia dh buang aku jauh2..biarla ape pn aku doakn yg tbaik tuk dia moga dia dpt ape yg dia impikn..moga kshtn dia sntiasa sht..moga khidupan dia sntiasa d jln yg btul..aku bkn nk tnjuk mulia sakit hati aku ni still trasa sumtimes ada kala aku doakn dia cr aku blk tp aku cpt2 sdr n mgucap pnjng..sape aku nk doakn bnda mcmtu kn soo aku doakn yg tbaik je tuk dia..kn best klu sng je kte dpt ape yg kte nk tkyh nk usaha ape2..tp tu dlm mimpi pn tk mungkin tjadi riteee..

Takat ni je la aku merapu meraban tk sanggup lg dh nk lap air mata ni baik aku stop n tdo kn..mane tau dlm mimpi aku dpt jmpa dia.....

*wrote on 8 sept 2012*

Tis is me:


Nota tangan : if only the truth didnt hurt tis bad..

Dugaan ALLAH s.w.t

Assalamualaikum its been a while kn since my last entry been a bit bz n a lot of things happen..dh kalah drama dh mylife ni sbnrnya..here a bit n pieces of what happen tis past few weeks

On 31 august - 2 sept 2012
When 2 johore jln2 cari psl

2 - 3 sept 2012
When 2 kulim then when back KL the next day

4 sept 2012
My ex had a terrible xcdnt at kilometers 413 utara-selatan highway..kete tibe2 hilang kawalan n berpusing beberapa kali sblm masuk longkang..alhamdulilah dia ok cuma luka d kepala n bruises kt a few place..ambk n drove back ptrjy tuk dia rht kt umah. Risau nye tuhan aje yg tau. Ingt nk cuti esknya n hntr dia blk but dia dpt mc 2 ari n minta anta ari jumaat *kbtulan mmg aku kursus 3 ari je*..

6 sept 2012
After work siap2 nk anta dia blk cos esknya dia keje pagi..nk d duga ALLAH la kn tlanggar lobang sblm smpi R&R tapah..bila benti check tkde ape kt tayar thn trs kn pjlnan...smooth je pjlnan till aku rasa nk wee wee thn bnti kt hentian mane tah aku lupe..bila check tayar mgelembung dh rasa nk nanges dh then my ex kata tkpe kang kte tnye org..nsb baik area tu byk lori stop n tdo..kami minta tlg abg lori tgkkn tayar..dia kata nsb baik tk jln klu tk mungkin akn meletop..uwaaaa syukur sgt aku rasa sbb aku tgerak ati nk check tyr masa tu..soo abg lori tlg tukarkn tyr spare..nsb baik la smua peralatan ada dlm kete aku..syukur alhamdulilah tyr spare pn tkde pape elok cuma tkde angin ckit..dh isi angin kami trs kn pljnan till kulim...alhamdulilah kami smpi around kul 3am

*wrote on 7th Sept 2012*

tis is me


nota tangan : syukur alhamdulilah atas segala dugaanmu Ya ALLAH

Esok kerja....

Assalamualaikum all..Raya has just past us by..cpt tul masa berlalu kn n now esk dh nk kembali bekerja *sigh* nape la dieorg tk bg cuti raya sbln ek besh gaks kn hahaha..mls nk citer psl raya sbb rasa nya aku update kt FB setiap saat kut hahaha saje nk wat org benci kt aku tau dh ayat main kt pale dieorg *mcm dia sorg je raya* hahahaha kan kan kan tipu la if korg tk pk gitu bila baca status2 aku kn kn hahahaha... suke ati aku la kn dh nama pn fb aku..tk suka leh blok or hide or anything yg leh wat korg rasa lebih bhgia ye.. zaman aku nk jaga hati smua org dh tkde dh mls la..last2 aku gaks yg sedey sorg2 hahaha kn kn soo adalah lebih baik aku wat ape bende yg aku suka sesuka hati aku muahahahahahha..*sdg belajar kering kn hati*

yg besh nye sblm raya aku dh rasa sakit urat tgn kanan ni..but aku biar kn smpi la arini aku rasa nk nanges sakit woo..smpi nk angkat brg pn aku tk larat kire parah la tu kn..isk..nk g berurut aku ni penakut cikit cos mmg dr dlu yg leh urut aku mama aku sorg je yg lain sure2 aku jerit..*aku tk suka kena uruttttt*...tah ape bende aku merepek ni pn tktau..yg pastinya aku mls g keje esk hahaha..tp klu tk keje sape laks nk bg ank2 aku mkn kn kn hahaha kena pk panjang sblm bertindak lalala~~`...

ye ye aku tau aku mmg suka merepek..tp klu dlm aku merepeks ni ada tersentuh hati sape2 aku minta maaf la ek..cos aku slalu mmg ckp psl aku je klu terkena batang hidung korg sory la mmg tkde niat..hehe..

ye aku tau korg mesti wonder kn psl dia..hahaha honestly aku pn tktau..dia dh stop msg aku n aku pn tk msg dia mayb its 4 the best kn..aku mls dh nk pk sbb aku dh rasa dh nilai aku pada dia tu kecik mana hahaha sbb tu tknk pk kang pk aku meroyan..bila aku meroyan aku teriak..bila aku teriak aku mkn byk tenaga..bila byk tenaga guna aku lemah..bila aku lemah aku bodoh...soooooo aku tknk jd bodoh..tp kdg2 sonok gaks jd bodoh ni kn leh guna kn hak kewanitaan sbgi contoh air mata hahahaha...tp kali ni aku nk smpn air mata aku tuk org yg hargai aku tuk nilai aku yg sbnrnya yeeehaaaaa!!!!...maju air mata tuk mata air hahahaha...

akhir kata aku still tkrasa nk keje esk tp klu tk g keje ape yg aku dpt??aku tk dpt ape sooo baik aku g keje hahahaha..oh btw sape2 tau kt mane ada org berurut yg tk sakit bg tau aku sbb tgn aku mmg dh kritikal ni nk grip steering pn kdg2 tkleh aduhh aduhh..doakn tgn aku baik segera =P

tis is me :
 

nota tangan : penat laks cinta org yg tk cinta kita..skang ni nk cinta smua hahaha..1 love yaa'll