this is me

Assalamualaikum korg..lama gila tk menulis kn..seyes aku rindu nk menulis balik tp apekan daya aku bz kalah menteri..td duk golek2 tetiba meleleh air mata ni..tktau la psl apa...ok aku tipu aku tau psl apa..tp biar la aku sorg je tau..seyes sedey lak tetiba..
Aku penat la..penat ngn life..penat ngn studies..penat ngn memacam la..tah la aku ni tk bersyukur kut.. Tak nmpk apa yg aku ada kut..well mybe just mybe aku ni buta haha..tu la slalu sgt membutakn mata kn dh jd gini hehe..aku kena semak blk apa yg aku nk dlm hidup ni..kena back to roots kn.. Kena blaja bersyukur tu yg penting..kena tolak tepi smua benda yg boleh merosakkn aku as manusia..buang smua yg boleh mengelapkan hati aku..ok tetiba skang aku rasa nk smoke muahahahaha..emosi apakah yg sedang aku alami ini..
Ok kang emosi aku dh stabil aku smbung ar..tu pn klu stabil la kn hahaha..till next time mwahkss korg...

Nota tangan : mcm aku ckp kt fb aku nk jd positif...chaiyokk..

hey there

Assalamualaikum uols...mungkin seminggu 1 post je yg aku mampu tulis kut hahaha..dh tk byk story mcm dlu..ada pn citer opis yg tk brape nk menariks hahaha..life aku sama je g keje blk keje g cls blk cls.. adventure cikit aku g alamanda nk adventure lg aku g IOI hahahaha..besh kn life aku skang.. bebas stress bebas toll bebas bebas bebas..hrp tk terbabas :P

tipu la klu aku kata aku tk lonely kn kn..perasaan tu sentiasa ada cuma aku biar je dia duk dlm satu bilik dlm sudut yg paling dlm kt hati aku..tkmau arr pk benda yg menyedihkn kn kn..sedey ke? muahahahaha ape bende yg aku merepekkn ni ek...

oh oh oh btw aku ada mention tk yg aku dh smbung blajar..ade ke tk ek..klu ada buat2 je la mcm br tau ek hahaha..aku skang ni student partime yg tgh berusaha untuk berjaya dgn jaya nya..klu boleh nk dpt kegemilangan mcm dlu..kte tgk je la dlu mcmane kn kn..

oh 1 more thing is tat aku dh dpt sorg lg ank buah..bby naurah iman nama nya..tk smpt nk gomol2 lg dia sbb aritu pn aku blk kejap je..nnt la dia dh bsr cikit aku post pic dia ek..

k la takat ni je la..till next time korg..mwakhsss sygg korgg..

nota tangan : tiba2 nmpk sumtin..bergetar tulang rusuk makk hahaha...

wow...

Assalamualaikum..wahh lama gila tk jenguk blog terchenta ni haha..penuh sawang dh..jap nk vakum...fooooommmmmm*bunyi vakum* hahaha...hello smua..how r u?hope korg smua fine fine belaka :P...ada ke org baca hahaha..

anyhow..aku dh menyinglekn diri dkt 1 year..hampir la 1 year..sonok gak hidup single ni..u are free 2 do what ever u want..tp kdg2 2 ada gak tindakan aku menyakitkn hati org lain..sorry ye..it was never my attention..aku just tgh menikmati kehidupan bebas tol aku ni and if it hurt u in anyways..im truly am sorry..

at this moment..aku tetiba rasa rindu kt somebody..isk tktau nape bila aku rindu kt dia..aku trasa berdosa haha ssh nk explain biar aku sorg je la yg paham ape maksud aku ek..klu dlu2 masa aku rindu dia..aku slalu hrp dia rindu aku blk smpi dia rasa tk bhgia..*ahaks kejam kn aku*..tp tu dlu la skang ni aku doakn dia bhgia dgn ape pn jln hidup yg dia pilih..kdg2 aku duk berharap dia cr aku blk..tp tkpe kut aku tk kwn ngn dia sbb perasaan aku still kuat tuk dia..baik tk kwn kn kn kn.. hope u are doing great GZ...

and at this moment lg aku rindu kwn2 aku...lama rasanya tk bersuka ria bersama..kdg2 jmpa pn tk dpt lepak lelama..ye la memasing dh ada tgujwp memasing kn..honestly aku rindu korg..lg2 aku tkde sape ni..kdg2 korg je la tmpt aku mengadu eventho korg pn bosan dgr mslh aku ni hehehe..tq sbb slalu ada time aku perlu..tp aku tknk la kaco hidup korg sgt kn..tknk la korg rasa tk selesa laks kwn ngn aku..kn kn knnnnnn...

k la smpi cini je la aku merepek dlu..nk g berjimba kt jualan bwh tu jap..if ada rezeki aku kembali berceloteh lg k..bubbyeeee....

nota tangan : rindu byk benda sbnrnya haha...

oh i wish..

Assalamualaikum all..

lately ni ive been missing..im not sure if its someone or just being with someone..the feeling of not being alone..the feeling of security..the feeling of loved..the feeling of just being ureself... the cute little things u do 2gether..getting mad for no reason n knowing that theres someone is going to calm u down by just being there.. getting sad for no reason n know that those tears will stop with just a hug..

and most of all i miss the stare that u can give to that person u love..those stolen stare..how do i explain it ek..the moment when u were looking to ure love one then they looked back..that special moment when ure eye connected..and u can see the love from that person eyes vice versa...that split second of just the 2 of us in the world and all u need is each other...ohh how i miss that moment....

nota tangan : still wishing..  

Salam Aidilfitri

Assalamualaikum korg..arini dh raya yg ke 8 dh just nk ucap Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin.. aku dh janji kt diri sndiri tknk sedey2 lagi..buat apa klu sebelah pihak je bersedey kn..sebelah pihak lg moving on dgn berjayanya kn..soooo tkmau ar pk pape n tkperlu la closure sgt kn sbb dh terjawap pn rasanya..

Tujuan utama aku td adalah nk buat ucapan hari raya je kn hehehe..meh aku blanje sekeping gambar di hari raya diriku ngn kekasih hingga hujung nyawa aku...

Salam Aidilfitri korg..mwahkssss tuk smua

After A Long Time - Rooftop Prince OST

The talks we had as we looked at each other

The stories that only we knew

I guess I can’t erase them,

I can’t throw them away,

I can’t forget them

I look around these streets for the first time in a while

Whenever I pass this street, the good memories

They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps

After a long time, I am here right now

Because I long for that time,

Though I tried to live without knowing,

I keep thinking about it

That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes

The times we spent together, the memories –

they fall like stars

How about you?

The people look only happy

It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness

I try to pretend that I’m not

but I keep thinking of you

After a long time, I am here right now

Because I long for that time,

Though I tried to live without knowing,

I keep thinking about it

That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes

The times we spent together, the memories –

they fall like stars

Tears fall

If I wait here,

will I be able to see you?

Then will I be able to tell you

how I feel right now?

Because I miss you, because I am missing you

That’s how I am, I only know you

Living without you makes me filled

with regret about everything

Because you’re not here,

because there are so many empty things

Again today, I long for that spot and

my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you

what shud i do??

Assalamualaikum all...*krik krik krik*...ada ke yg membaca ni...hahaha. biar la tkde pn just nk tmpt meluahkan..nk citer kt org tktau nk mula mcmane..sbenarnya nk citer kt cini pn tktau nk mula mcmane..tp boleh cuba laaa...ohhh btw Salam Ramadhan all..arini dh ramadhan yg ke 8 makanya dh 8 hari kita berpuasa...ok lets get back 2 my story...

citer bermula sehari sblum kita smua sambut ramadhan...jeng jeng jeng hahaha ok sumtin happen n it leads 2 another...then tau2 aku dh duk umah aku..n dh tkde pape ngn arjuna (klu korg ingt la sape arjuna tu)..tah la aku tkrasa aku over reacted tp mungkin pada pihak arjuna aku over reacted..yg jd benda jd lebih parah is that bila aku blk umah aku..dia tkde pn nk pujuk aku or ape..pdahal apa yg jd slh dia..yes yes dia might argue yg dia dh minta maaf..tp come ooooonnnnn cukup ke maaf tu?? put some afford la kn..tunjuk laaa keikhlasan kau tu..isk..

not just tat..the next day pn aku tk dpt ape2 berita dari dia..no text no wassap no hangout..nadaaa.. aku yg merajuk tkkn aku nk kena pujuk diri aku sendiri kn...but rasanya mmg slalu aku pujuk diri hehe..ok then bila aku blk nk ambk brg aku..aku tgk dia ok je..time tu mmg mendidih darah aku.. yes aku snap...yess aku ckp sumtin yg sakit kn hati.. yesss aku tk bermaksud mcm tu...yesss yess yesss ohh noooooooo...

seyesly aku kompius... ok mungkin korg tnya nape aku kompius kn..aku kompius sbb bknnya aku tk syg dia...aku dh bersama dgn dia for 2 years + 1 year berkawan...byk dh aku tempuhi dgn dia..lg2 time both of us kehilangan ahli keluarga..we were there for each other..tp tu laa...lepas aku keluar dr umah dia..tkde pape pn respon dr pihak dia...aku assume dia setuju la kn..myb la dh lama dh aku tkde dlm hati dia cuma both of us tkleh nk let go cos kami tkde sape kt cini *putrajya*..well myb dia ramai kawan tp aku mmg tkde sape la kt cini...

honestly aku pn tktau ape sebenarnya motif aku citer kt cini..bknnya ada org baca pn..mungkin tuk kepuasan hati aku kut..orr deep deep deep deep down aku harap dia baca n respond...tah la mungkin ape yg aku perlukan is closure kut...shud i just tnye je kt dia?nk tnya ape?nk ke dia berbincang ngn aku? hahahaha dh la byk sgt soklan nya...ni nk tmbah lagi....what shud i do????

nota tangan : bkn senang nk hilang kn rasa cinta n syg ni...