oh i wish..

Assalamualaikum all..

lately ni ive been missing..im not sure if its someone or just being with someone..the feeling of not being alone..the feeling of security..the feeling of loved..the feeling of just being ureself... the cute little things u do 2gether..getting mad for no reason n knowing that theres someone is going to calm u down by just being there.. getting sad for no reason n know that those tears will stop with just a hug..

and most of all i miss the stare that u can give to that person u love..those stolen stare..how do i explain it ek..the moment when u were looking to ure love one then they looked back..that special moment when ure eye connected..and u can see the love from that person eyes vice versa...that split second of just the 2 of us in the world and all u need is each other...ohh how i miss that moment....

nota tangan : still wishing..  

Salam Aidilfitri

Assalamualaikum korg..arini dh raya yg ke 8 dh just nk ucap Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin.. aku dh janji kt diri sndiri tknk sedey2 lagi..buat apa klu sebelah pihak je bersedey kn..sebelah pihak lg moving on dgn berjayanya kn..soooo tkmau ar pk pape n tkperlu la closure sgt kn sbb dh terjawap pn rasanya..

Tujuan utama aku td adalah nk buat ucapan hari raya je kn hehehe..meh aku blanje sekeping gambar di hari raya diriku ngn kekasih hingga hujung nyawa aku...

Salam Aidilfitri korg..mwahkssss tuk smua

After A Long Time - Rooftop Prince OST

The talks we had as we looked at each other

The stories that only we knew

I guess I can’t erase them,

I can’t throw them away,

I can’t forget them

I look around these streets for the first time in a while

Whenever I pass this street, the good memories

They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps

After a long time, I am here right now

Because I long for that time,

Though I tried to live without knowing,

I keep thinking about it

That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes

The times we spent together, the memories –

they fall like stars

How about you?

The people look only happy

It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness

I try to pretend that I’m not

but I keep thinking of you

After a long time, I am here right now

Because I long for that time,

Though I tried to live without knowing,

I keep thinking about it

That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes

The times we spent together, the memories –

they fall like stars

Tears fall

If I wait here,

will I be able to see you?

Then will I be able to tell you

how I feel right now?

Because I miss you, because I am missing you

That’s how I am, I only know you

Living without you makes me filled

with regret about everything

Because you’re not here,

because there are so many empty things

Again today, I long for that spot and

my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you

what shud i do??

Assalamualaikum all...*krik krik krik*...ada ke yg membaca ni...hahaha. biar la tkde pn just nk tmpt meluahkan..nk citer kt org tktau nk mula mcmane..sbenarnya nk citer kt cini pn tktau nk mula mcmane..tp boleh cuba laaa...ohhh btw Salam Ramadhan all..arini dh ramadhan yg ke 8 makanya dh 8 hari kita berpuasa...ok lets get back 2 my story...

citer bermula sehari sblum kita smua sambut ramadhan...jeng jeng jeng hahaha ok sumtin happen n it leads 2 another...then tau2 aku dh duk umah aku..n dh tkde pape ngn arjuna (klu korg ingt la sape arjuna tu)..tah la aku tkrasa aku over reacted tp mungkin pada pihak arjuna aku over reacted..yg jd benda jd lebih parah is that bila aku blk umah aku..dia tkde pn nk pujuk aku or ape..pdahal apa yg jd slh dia..yes yes dia might argue yg dia dh minta maaf..tp come ooooonnnnn cukup ke maaf tu?? put some afford la kn..tunjuk laaa keikhlasan kau tu..isk..

not just tat..the next day pn aku tk dpt ape2 berita dari dia..no text no wassap no hangout..nadaaa.. aku yg merajuk tkkn aku nk kena pujuk diri aku sendiri kn...but rasanya mmg slalu aku pujuk diri hehe..ok then bila aku blk nk ambk brg aku..aku tgk dia ok je..time tu mmg mendidih darah aku.. yes aku snap...yess aku ckp sumtin yg sakit kn hati.. yesss aku tk bermaksud mcm tu...yesss yess yesss ohh noooooooo...

seyesly aku kompius... ok mungkin korg tnya nape aku kompius kn..aku kompius sbb bknnya aku tk syg dia...aku dh bersama dgn dia for 2 years + 1 year berkawan...byk dh aku tempuhi dgn dia..lg2 time both of us kehilangan ahli keluarga..we were there for each other..tp tu laa...lepas aku keluar dr umah dia..tkde pape pn respon dr pihak dia...aku assume dia setuju la kn..myb la dh lama dh aku tkde dlm hati dia cuma both of us tkleh nk let go cos kami tkde sape kt cini *putrajya*..well myb dia ramai kawan tp aku mmg tkde sape la kt cini...

honestly aku pn tktau ape sebenarnya motif aku citer kt cini..bknnya ada org baca pn..mungkin tuk kepuasan hati aku kut..orr deep deep deep deep down aku harap dia baca n respond...tah la mungkin ape yg aku perlukan is closure kut...shud i just tnye je kt dia?nk tnya ape?nk ke dia berbincang ngn aku? hahahaha dh la byk sgt soklan nya...ni nk tmbah lagi....what shud i do????

nota tangan : bkn senang nk hilang kn rasa cinta n syg ni...

me say

Kembali Normal

penat lelah pk

buat penat

yang kau nak tu

just an idea

tak wujud dalam alam nyata

alam nyata depan mata

masih masalah sama

tapi takpee...

lelah duk pk

alih-alih...

masih dalam alam maya

yang nyata tu alam

yang maya tu kau

keluar cari jalan

eh!! tapi takpeee....

sebab kau tau

maya alam nyata

still akan

kembali normal...

Tah Laaaa....

Assalamualaikum all...sorry past post cuma lagu je..lagu2 tu ada kena mengena dgn jiwa masa ketika itu hahaha..i know it's been a while since i wrote anything that is from my heart kn..tah la lately ni rasa byk benda tp tk terasa nk menulis..

for those yg tau citer tau la my situation skang ni...im in a different dimension mcm ala2 twilight zone (bunyi muzik background twilight zone)....terasa terapung2 je skang ni..1 foot out while the other still in..seriously lately ni im not being true to myself..hati dan kepala duk berteka teki sesama sendiri smpi tkboleh nk buat keputusan..

susah actually bila kite dh terbiasa dgn situasi kite slama ni...nk melangkah tuk kebahgiaan kedua dua pn ssh sbb dh sedap...kdg2 aku tau both of us are really lying 2 ourself..bila aku tnya dia akn sentiasa ckp dia tau ape dia nk..aku yg tktau,...honestly mmg kdg2 aku tktau..i just wanna be love tu je aku mintak dr dlu lg..tp ssh sbnrnya nk dpt kn cinta dr seseorg tu kn kn kn...

dia sebenarnya dh byk berubah..mungkin sbb dia dh tk larat nk lyn perangai aku..ye la aku ni kn memacam..mmg bkn semua leh handle aku..kdg2 aku pn tkleh nk handle diri sendiri..but still dia mmg dh byk berubah..tp kn bila aku ckp dia tk caya..dia ckp dia sama je..sama ke klu dlu beg aku dia bwkkn skang ni tnye pn tidak..hahaha..sama ke klu dlu sanggup g kl cr bunga skang ni bau bunga pn tkde hahaha...sama ke klu dlu...... dot dot dot.. biar laa sama ke tk sama ke kn tp yg pasti yg rasa aku... yg terima pn aku...

dh la mls laks nk citer pjng2 bkn nye berubah pn citer nye kn kn kn...aku pn mls nk citer sbb aku rasa kdg2 mslh aku ni sama je...kdg2 bosan gaks..aku pn bosan ni kn org lain kn kn kn hahahaha..k la tu je kut wat masa ni..kang teriak kt opis ni org tnye ssh laks nk jwp hahahaha..

nota tangan : kekuatan tuk sesuatu jawapan tu bkn senang nk cari..masih mencari jawapan..

i just wanna be brave

Song of the day

"Chasing Pavements"

I've made up my mind,

Don't need to think it over

If I'm wrong, I am right

Don't need to look no further,

This ain't lust

I know this is love

But if I tell the world

I'll never say enough

'cause it was not said to you

And that's exactly what I need to do

If I end up with you

[Chorus:]

Should I give up?

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place?

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up?

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up

And fly around in circles

Waitin' as my heart drops

And my back begins to tingle

Finally, could this be it

[Chorus:]

Or should I give up?

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place?

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up?

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up?

Or should I just keep on chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place?

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up?

Or should I just keep on chasin' pavements?

Should I just keep on chasin' pavements?

Ohh oh

[Chorus:]

should I give up?

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

Or would it be a waste

Even if I knew my place?

Should I leave it there?

should I give up?

Or should I just keep chasin' pavements

Even if it leads nowhere?

B.I.A.R.L.A.H

aku tk minta bulan dan bintang..yg aku nk hanya tuk di sygi dan di cintai tu je..if tats so hard then what is there left for us??..

tkpe lah biar la aku sorg je yg tau...tkperlu kata apa-apa..

nota tangan : lonely is created for me..

Song of the day

Pernahkah kau bicara

Tapi tak di dengar

Tak di anggap

Sama sekali..

Pernahkan kau tak salah

Tapi disalahkan

Tak di beri

Kesempatan

Kuhidup dengan siapa

Ku tak tau kau siapa

Kau kekasihku tapi

Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah

Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku

Aku patung bagimu

Cinta buta

Kebutuhan mu

Kuhidup dengan siapa

Ku tak tau kau siapa

Kau kekasihku tapi

Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah

Kau begitu

Hoo.. Hooo

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah

Kau.. kau begitu

Teruskan lah... teruskan lah..

Quote of the day

Assalamualaikum all..ive found this while looking around...quit asking me what 2 do but instead think what can u do 2 make us happy...pond on that...

nota tangan : beberapa minggu ni sering rasa kurang enak..mengapa yeee...