S.A.D

what sadden me is tat u dont even notice the tears at my eyes...n ive tried so hard not to cry..i felt so alone n so worthless..why r u doing tis 2 me??n y did i let u?....

tis is me : Lya

Doa Ku

Ya ALLAH Ya TUHANKU..
padaMU aku memohon..jika ini benar buat ku tenangkn lah jiwa ku..jika ini hanya mainan berikan lah aku petunjuk..sesungguhnya aku memerlukan pedoman dan petunjuk dari MU..hanya padaMu ku berserah..hanya diriMU yg tau apa yg terbaik buat ku..

Amin Ya Rabbal Ala Min..

Nurkilan Hati

Bila dia adalah segala
Bila dia yang paling utama
Bila dia masa depan mu
Bila dia beraja dihatimu
Bila dia penentu segala

DAN

Bila aku hanya secebis mimpi mu
Bila aku terakhir buat mu
Bila aku tak bermakna untuk mu
Bila aku hanya penanti mu

JADI

Aku hanya mampu bertahan
Aku hanya mampu berdoa
Aku hanya mampu menitiskan air mata
Aku hanya penanti setia...

Nurkilan hati seseorg yg masih berharap

tis is me :


nota tangan : u build ur world around her then i stupidly build mine around u....

Things Happen Rite...

Assalamualaikum all..ya ya its been days since i wrote anything kan..n im sure nobody notice ahaks n even care..well what the heck i write pn bkn sbb nk org baca but just 4 me 2 let out whats been on my mind kn kn...

before i start i would like 2 apologize if tis entry ada wat anybody or anyone terasa or even mrh but i really need 2 write tis...sumbody told me a story 2day n as i listen carefully i realize tat most people do stupid n strange thing 4 love..hey dont get me wrong, i myself are doing it...n the main question here are why do we do it? eventho we dont really know the outcome..why do we put ourself in a situation where we know tat we cant really say or do anything..its like being in a box well in my case i need a really big box ahaks..

i cant really answer my own question..cos i dont even know why im doin this..well maybe i know la tat love really can take a hold of ur whole life..even now when i know tat my chances a so little but still im willing 2 wait n i know i told people tat i wont wait in pain but heyyy i am waiting in pain..cos waiting is so painful when u really dont know where its goin.. furthermore if the other person never even comfort u in any way..

come to think of it, it might come to a point of just the principle of it..but i wish its not tat way..REALLY!! love does thing 2 ur brain,body n most of all ur heart..love can change who u r n how u think n how u react 2 things n how u speak n how u eat..ect...well u've got the jizz of it kn..i stand up n applaud 2 all WAITERS *bkn pelayan ye* out there...we shud give ourself a pat on our back cos in a way we are strong individual whose willing 2 stand up for wat we believe in..just hang in there n im sure when the time comes u will know what 2 do..n my prayers r wit u..hopefully we find what we're looking 4...

tats it for now..till next entry..mwahksss i love u guyz..

tis is me :


nota tangan : sy bersyukur dgn apa yg sy ada alhamdulilah..TQ for tell me...

S.T.R.O.N.G.E.R

Assalamualaikum all..i know its been a while since my last entry dont know y i just cant write anything now a days..its killing me 2 hav tis many thought but cant write about it..tensen wooo..but as always i'll manage i always do...lets start the inner self monolog shall we...here we goooo...

last month ive been a wee bit melodramatic rite..but hey we need some drama in our life otherwise boring la kn hahaha..but still i know its been an annoying journey 2 some people...n i truly admit tat i am a bit bored of being sad all the time..its taking my youth *eventho im just in my 20* muahahahaha =P..n im sure non of us wants tat rite..2 b n feel old before ur time kn kn knnnnnn...so here i am making a pledge 2 my self not 2 let anyone or anything or even myself 2 make me feel less then what i am..i refuse 2 feel sad anymore n i refuse 2 stop myself from doin what ever it is tat i want...

ya ya i know its sound soooooooooo selfish of me..but what the heck i can b selfish 4 myself if i wanted 2 kn kn..u know what now i feel soooo much stronger n i think im beginning 2 get my old self back..im truly loving it..n if u were wondering a promise is still a promise n i'll try my very best not 2 break it..i've survive a month sooo ape la sgt lg a few months kn kn knnnnnn..im sure i'll manage..

ok tats it..till next quest..*who know might b later kn ahaha*..mwahkssssss love u guyz..

tis is me :


nota tangan : love is not a toy 2 me..so stop toying wit me..