sad..

hey all im sad as hell but i dont wanna talk about it...just wants to mark the sadness in my heart..

till next quest guys..happy reading..

im a 'P' at last....

as stated above..yes people ive got my driving license at last hahaha..yea yea besh bgt passed with flying colors hehehe..

kul 745 dh terpacak kt IMKL tue...cikgu2 semua duk kemas kusi tuk calon2 hehehe..mula2 kt pendaftaran ngn jpj my number giliran is 19..but after tat dpt num 11 hehe *my lucky number* start out kena jln raya dlu..hahahaha ngn kompident arr bwk hahaha..n dgn selamba nye bwk cilok2 n potong bus muahahaha..time tue dh pk tkdpt laa lesen nie n nk lagi menarik enjin mati skali dpn trafic light hehe..mmg pk tk dptt lalala~~`...then last pusing imkl nk park kete brade jpj tue tnye..."nie kali ke brape ambik?" i pun jwp la "skali br incik"....then die tnye lagi.. "penah bwk kete ke sebelum nie?" ... "tkpenah cik cuma masa blaja jerk la"...hehehe then dh benti kete tarik handbreak... "tulis nama n no ic n sain cini" hahahahahaha giler laaa berjaya gaks dpt 18/20 tue pun sbb lambt bg sgnal n tukar gear slh hahahaha...tk sangka beb..but time tue derita tk abesh lagik..kena kt track laks...so kedek2 arr gie kt tmpt menunggu kt tepi bukit...

tgu punya tgu...dpt arr kete n naik la bukit..yuhhhuuuu lepass hahaha dgn jaya nya..mmg dr awal bukit bukan mslh bg diriku ini...then lepas bukit parking n 3 penjuru..masuk parking ngn selamba jerk seminit jerk beb jgn jeles hahahaha...then masuk arr 3penjuru yg mmg mslh tuk i yg asik nk bwk laju2 jerk kete hahahaha..dh la kete yg dpt time tue timing tinggi gile isk isk..abesh jerk parking ngn 3penjuru gie la kt jpj yg ade kt citu..die sound "3penjuru awk tue sy bg lepas..patut nye tk lepas...tp sy mls la nk bgn tunjuk" ...muahahahhaa ngn muka selamba i tnye "nape encik?" ngn muka tk rela jpj tue jwp "ader sbb kenapa dieorg letak plat besi tue kt bwh tue" hahahaha sumpah tk phm..tp wat2 muke phm n ckp "trima kasih encik"..yehuuu besh gile tk reti ape2 dh yg tau dh dpt lesen tkde arr org lain tk bg bwk kete die kn hahahaha...

then gie la kaunter..time tue br tau yg kena bayar 70 n bg pic hahahaha...kebetulan kakak kol time tue then suh la mama n ayah anta pic...i ngn kompident gie la bank nk cucuk duit dgn bangga nya sbb gaji dh masuk...check2 hahahahah hampes beras mane adee..mane gaji akuu!!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....nie bkn nangis tipu2 k..tk caya tnye mukmuk..die kol time tue...jd la citer drama bertajuk "tangisan seorg pemegang lesen p baru" ahaks..nangis beria2 kt bus stand smbil tgu mama n ayah smpi..nangis smpi mukmuk pun tktau nk ckp ape dh hehe..sedey psl bende lain sebenarnya kn mukk kite jerk tau..uuu uu uuuu....nsb baik la mama bg pinjam duit n bayar dh la duit lesen tue hahahaha...selasa ni siap laa yeaaaahhhh!!!

k la guys pedas laks roti yg lya mkn nie nk gie pantry carik air jap tlg tlg...till next quest happy reading....

*muk nk bwk kete u leh tk???ngeh ngeh ngeh*

pelik~```

ade ke tgh2 training smlm dpt msg mcmnie dari mukmuk..."syg i takut i mimpi ade org nk bunuh i" hehehehe tgelak baca.."ade ke mcm tue" i respon...then die bls "org tue dh bunuh u dlu"...muahahahahahaha adeh dh mati dlu laks..then bila i tnye sape..die ckp "h-----" then die tnye "u rasa die marah kt i lagi tk" ......my answer is "mrh la kut, u msg la dia "...muk jwp "bulan dpn la i msg dia sbb bulan nie dh tkde crdt"...

tue arr conversation sms kami smlm..i dont know ape punca die leh mimpi mcm tue cos slalu nya org ckp klu kite pk2 sgt terbawak2 dlm mimpi..or mmg just a silly dream..biar la..slama nie pun mmg tk penah halang die nk kwn ngn ex dia...tp agak terkejut gaks la sbb mimpi die tue agak mengerikn hehe...

k la guyz till next quest happy reading...

*kena beli insuran nyawa byk2 nie hehe...sblm jd ape2 nk mintak maaf la kt semua yg pernah terasa hati ngn lya k...*

oh btw i mati kena tembak dlm mimpi tue..n die tk sempat nk selamat kn.....

topic "pening"

its my second day of training sistem baru..nk ckp busan tkde la busan tp trainer terpaksa panjang2 kn bende yg pendek2 sbb nk muat kn dlm 5 ari hahahaha..yeay 5 ari mkn free suke suke...mmg kena betul ngn diri ku yg tkde duit nie...

couple of dayz nie mmg mcm2 yg jd..baik buruk semua ade la..but di sbb kn diriku ini mls nk pnjng2 kn lagi citer2 yg sememang nya panjang kite tk perlu la citer knnnnnnnnn...simpan wat ikan pekasam lagi besh hehe..skang ni yg i nk story is kesimpulan dr kisah yg panjang yg i tknk citer td hahahah suke ckp belit2 biar semua terbelit baca haha..

kesimpulan nya...tah i also dont know ape kesimpulan nya....maybe kesimpulan nya is jgn la mkn hati sgt bila org tipu..sbb org tipu tue bersebab n bila dh dpt tau citer sebenar duk diam2 n mkn hati sudah jgn meroyan cini sana...muahahaahhahahahahahahahaha *gaya org tensen gelak*..tp buat pengetahuan all dh settel dh pun mslh yg panjang yg di pnjg2 kn tue hehe..

yg lagi besh..si mukmuk emo n buang semua kwn dia..tah la tkphm..nk wat korg phm pun mesti korg pun tkphm gaks sbb i nie pun tk phm kn hahahaha..kite semua buat2 phm sudah la hahahahaha.....

k la guyz till next quest happy reading...

*moral of the story : jgn kwn org..kwn la teddy bear anda..:P *

pengumuman

ketahui lah wahai kamu bahwasanya sy sgt sgt sgt sedey...meleleh air mata sy tgk kamu...

its the end

i always wonder whut would be the reason 4 me n mukmuk at last say goodbye 2 eachother...my 1st guess would b dia curang...my 2nd guess would b dia tknk duk sama2...hahaha mmg suke berpk aku nie..well now tkyh nk wonder2 wonderkid wondergurl wonderwomen semua tk perlu sbb dh terjwp dh...the reason would be is jeng jeng jeng ...biar lah rhsia......mls la nk pnjng2 kn citer..i dh tau kedudukan sebenar diriku dh cukup la tkperlu nk citer2 lagi..

ahaks bila pk balik mmg lawak sbb nya tp bila libat hati,cinta,perasaan mmg tkleh trima smpi bila2 mls nya nk citer tp nk luah semua nya sbb nk sedey biar sedey skang nie..esk2 tknk sdy2 dh klu leh tknk pk ape2 biar jadi numb biar jd mcm cak dlu kayu batu n semua yg keras2 la ahaks..tktau nk slh kn sape dlm citer nie but yg boleh slh kn diri sendiri la sbb tk mampu nk selamat kn relationshp yg dh agak lama nie...i tk mampu dh nk tepuk sorg2..pok pok pok hahaha ape la yg aku merepek2 nie..

tktau dh la nk tulis ape..emosi kureng stabil...tp pasnie tkde meroyan2 lagik dh..tknk ganggu idup sape2 ngn mslh sendiri..simpan sorg lagi besh..leh guling2 nangis tkde org tau..yeay

buat pengetahuan semua *sape2 la yg baca blog nie* sy sedey yg amat2 sbb segala usaha penat lelah sabar sy jd sia2 sbb benda bodoh haha sekian

till next quest *klu ade lagi la*.....happy reading guys....

outing wit cak cak n bebe

smlm mukmuk dr johor gie PD anta mak n cik odah then dia seret lan *ank buah dia* dtg umah..the plan is 4 me to follow mukmuk gie PD lepak umah kakak dia..but before tat muk kol ckp ajak la cak lepak...i pun msg la cak then cak called n ajak lepak..as always tmpt lepak dieorg kt sunway piramid ahaks *b siap hafal setiap tingkat ade ape k hehe jgn mrh sis b* dlm conversation antara me wit cak ade gaks selit kn bgtau kt cak yg tknk ikut gie PD nk suh mukmuk stay umah hehehehehe....*yeay berjaya kn plan kite cak wlupun tkde plan hehe*.....

di pendek kn citer...mukmuk smpi my house dh nk mahgrib so suh die masuk dlu then lepas azan baru kuar...masa muk tukar bj kt ats i pun kebek2 hp dia hahahhaa ape yg ku jangka slama ini mmg benar kn kn kn...ssh la bila instinct kuat nie...alih2 diri sendiri gaks yg sakit...tnye2 muk just leh ckp i minta maaf...tah la dh byk kali dgr tat word smpi mcm dh tkde makna dh..but dsbbkn i nie hati lembik ok la gaks cos mls nk bising2 bkn nye bdk2 lagik 2 2 ekor tue kn..tk pasti npe nk tpu kunun nk jg hati...ahaks nk jg hati bkn mcm tue cara nya laaa...lama la gaks majuk ngn mukmuk smpi kt piramid smpi jumpe cak ngn b la...

cak at 1st ckp nk lepak nk mkn kt penang but smpi dpn penang tue tk stop pun jln terus ke tony romas hahhahahhahaa dieorg ni mmg dh sebati ngn incik tony romas agaks nye haha...lepak mkn kt citu smbil sembang2..panas td tk kewl lagik so terbawak2 la kehangatan tue dpn cak n b ahaks maaf korg cos lya mmg tgh hot hot hot hehehe tp still leh tersenyum n wat lawak kn ahaks..n ade moment yg mmg lawak bgt...it goes like tis..;

cak : "k--- ni buat la mcm tue kang lya lari kang br tau..."
lya : angguk2
mukmuk :dgn selambe "alaaaa..dia tkleh lari dia gemuk..."
lya : gelak2 jerk "hamboiiiiii..."
b : "ehhh...leh dia ckp mcm tueee" dgn expression yg tk puas hati....
lya + mukmuk : gelak2 lagik
cak : "baby tu mmg cara dieorg manja2 la...mcm i panggil u dugung..paus...." smbil pegang tgn b....
lya + mukmuk : wat muka pelik...
lya : "laaa kteorg mmg mcm tue b....tue perkataan manja kteorg"...smbil gesel2 ngn mukmuk hehehhe

hahahahhaa lebih kurang mcm tue la conversation tue..ahaks tk sangka laks ade org sangka kiteorg betui2 hehehehe...tue arr cara manja kiteorg kunun2 nye hahahhaa...

byk gaks happen yesterday..tp mcm pjng laks nk letak dlm 1 entry ahaks...nnt mlm kang i try to smbung lagik k....till next quest guys..happy reading....

*ade pic kami dlm blog cak ombakasih *

p.s pic i dlm tue tk cantekkk uwaaaa...hehe

happy 3rd raya...

im so sad 2day but i dont think ive got the energy to type what happen..i just want it to end soon very2 soon i dont want to think about it anymore..i wants the hurt to stop..but i know deep down inside i cant stop think about it...ahaks sumtimes its better to just do nutin in order 4 it to stop..if we fight it to hard but still cant grab it then its not ure's just let it go so that it will be happier than ever...my wish 4 u is to be save always n be happy always...i have nutin left to say cos im out of words...n im out of everything....

im alone again well thats not new 4 me..i guess i have to endure the pain in order 4 me to move on..n i know i have to move on....its easier to said than done i know but in my case i have to...

arrgghh suddently have headache...till next quest guys happy reading...

*no more tear drops*

food 4 today....

guyz i dont have pic for raya tp ade pic food tat i cooked td..tk lalu mkn rendang2 semua..so not much to say here..not in the best mood for anything...just enjoy the pic k

tahu telur msk kicap

sambal tumis udang + petai

k guys enjoy till next quest happy reading....

no title...

no title just nk post pic of my nametag n my pc kt opis ahaks...tkde keje mcm tue la

Selamat Hari Raya

Selamat Hari Raya all...smlm harap2 gaks arinie yg raya cos if raya arini byk cikit cuti ahaks but dh tertulis raya esk bersamaan dgn 10 September 2010...

Di sini lya nk ambil kesempatan tuk memohon ampun n maaf jika ade ter kasar bahsa, ter mengumpat, ter mengata, ter kutuk, ter marah, ter guriskn hati, ter ter ter ter yg mcm2 lagi la after all kite nie hanya la hamba yg Esa n tidak sempurna..harap dpt di ampun kn..

Well this year i'll be celebrating in KL..so sape2 yg berhari raya di bandaraya tue mai la umah..cak n yat kata nk dtg raya kedua *harap jd la kn*..jemput jemput semua beraya kt umah lya k...

Semasa beraya nnt jgn lupa pada yg tidak berada n sentiasa la kita sedekah kn doa kepada yg sudah tiada..lebih afdal if ziarah kubur sanak keluarga yg telah tiada..i tk dpt nk ziarah kubur arwah atuk n opah n my beloved bro harap2 tp tkkn ku lupa untuk sentiasa berdoa tuk mereka...

After all n all hope u guyz have a happy happy happppyyyy raya k..kite jumpa lagi selepas raya mwakkhhhsss till next quest..happy reading....

*muk congrates 4 getting ure car...nnt kite gie jln2 naik kete u ek yeay yeay hehe*

boring.....

hey guys its been a while ive wrote anything here cos ive been busy cos raya is just around the corner...rite now im at opiz and its -17 degrees ahaks..beku beku semua beku iskk..air liuq ni pun rasa nk beku hahahaha...d sebab kn boring soo i pun gie jln2 kt blog org lain *u guys know who u r* tgk cara dieorg menulis mcm pro la beb..tgk diri sendiri menaip hahahaha tah ape2 ikut suke suki hati mati diri sendiri jerk nk tulis kn kn..well i guess u cant never be anyother else then ure self m i riteee.....

yesterday ive already got my nametag ahaks nnt la i post the pic k cos bz bgt di umah tekanan pun ade..ari2 jerit2 n nangis2 pun ade muahahahaha..kueh raya dh byk dh my sis n law, my sis n my mom dh buat i nie balik2 jadi tukang taste jerk ahaks..pastue kumen biasak laa wanita bekerjaya bz bz hahahahaha...lagi pun my kueh raya dh siap awal2

just now sbb busan sgt duk jalan2 kt blog2 org yg ade jual beg iskk tekanan sungguh tgk rasa mcm nk order terus tp bila pk duit kt bank ade berapa sen jerk tk jd simpan niat jerk la..yg ade page yg benar2 suke siap follow lagik ahaks...doakn la duit gaji bulan nie masuk seperti biasa ek..cos mmg dh kering kontang dh nie ahaks..dlm kering2 kontang tue ade gaks la i membazir kn diri dgn jln2 kt bwh opis tgk org jual2 hahahahaha...gurl will always be gurl kn kn kn

dr td duk tgk jam kt dinding tue ajerk *cos im not wearing any* tgk2 sama jerk klu gerak pun 1 minit jerk ayooookkk rasa mcm nk jerit cptt laa kul 5...dh la ujan lebat gile kt cini rasa mcm nk nangis cos nk jln die bus stop jauh gile hahahaha basah lagik la daku harap2 tk batal la pose ku ini hahahahahaha....

k la guys mls laks nk menaip dh la keyboard nie keras satu opis dgr i menaip muahahahah lantak p laaa...till next quest guys..happy reading...

bila nk raya nie..

last post tue bgi nk gile tau wat ade dugaan tah pg td hahaha sanggup la tk tdo dr subuh smpi kul 10 klu tgk balik bukan ade pape pun istimewa hahahahhaha sengal sengal...

2day rasa mcm nk ngamuk sakan jerk...my spek patah...isk isk tula dia when u got kids ahaks ade anak ke???notttttt its my sis nyer baby isk tktau la nk citer mcmane ganas nye baby sorg tue...klu tk bg ngamuk smpi sakit jiwa dgr bila bg tgk la ape jd...nsb baik tk patah 2 if patah 2 mmg buta laaa kt umah nsb baik gie opis pakai contact lense..ingt kn dia belum 2 years old jerk if tk mmg dh kena blasah dh...i nyer la geram smpi menitis gaks la air mata nie..tekanan tekanan... org tk phm my situations org ingt duk umah ngn parents tue senang, besh, n yg baik2 segala la.. but 4 me tekanan...org lain *yg tk kawen* balik2 leh relex2 but not me balik2 kena jaga baby yg bukan ku lahir kn....tksempat nk relex jiwa n minda dh ade jerk benda baru jadik..n the best thing is tat kdg2 org yg patut bertanggungjawap biar kn ajerk n letak tanggungjwp tue atas bahu ku yg agak fergile nie...tkpernah sekali pun dieorg tnya how's was my day ahaks...tknk la ckp pnjng2 kang nangis..sedey bgt but nk buang mati bapak nk smpn mati diri *ahaks peribahasa sendiri*....

wahai kamu2 dgr la rintihan hati adik mu ini...im sick n tired of doing things tat r not suppose to be mine in the 1st place...dont get me wrong i love my niece but sumtimes i do need time 4 myself..n the only place i can get tat is here..oh god i felt so tired....

k la guyz tats it kang byk2 nangis hehe..till next quest happy reading...

*muk tis is y i need whut i need....*

My Gift 4 U

Michelle featherstone - Careful download

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Michelle Featherstone - Careful

It's the little things
They pulled me in and I'm defenseless
I try to ignore like I've done before but it's just useless

I've made up my mind that I'm gonna let you in
And I'm not afraid but I have to say

This is gonna hurt if it ever ends
But somehow you have shattered my defense
This is gonna hurt if it ever starts
So promise you'll be careful with my heart

It's the things you do
They made me fall hard for you and I can't help it
And it's every day that I feel this way
So just don't stop it

I've made up my mind that I'm gonna let you in
And I'm not afraid but I have to say

This is gonna hurt if it ever ends
But somehow you have shattered my defense
This is gonna hurt if it ever starts
So promise you'll be careful with my heart

I won't make excuses
They just all seem useless
You don't have the time
I guess I'll take my chances now that I know love is on the line

This is gonna hurt if it ever ends
But somehow you have shattered my defense
This is gonna hurt if it ever starts
So promise you'll be careful with my heart

Careful with my heart
Careful with my heart

* 4 u my syg....plz promise u'll be careful wit my heart *